For weeks I've been sleeping terribly... Waking up in cold sweats almost every night for weeks from nightmares I can't remember. Some things have been... Rather painful... Still waiting on the long term effects. Today I woke up feeling bare. I woke up feeling stripped to the bone. Today I went into my basement to do my routine morning workout... And went so hard I nearly passed out a few times. For the preceding 16 hours or so I had been craving a song... One song... I just needed to hear it with everything that I am, and that song was In A Box by Teqq. As I walked out the door today I threw my ipod on shuffle, and there it was... The first song... I played it so loudly, and felt it so deeply that it nearly brought me to tears. Moving onward to where I'm sitting right now. I'm in my 1st period English IV class with my beloved teacher Mrs. Hart. Behind the scenes she wrote character awards for each of us, and she began to give a description. Someone who is always looking at a new way to do things. A new way to analyze a text. A new way to do a project. Someone who is always looking for a creative new perspective... She called my name, and it welled me with a sense of joy. Last night I fell asleep with my soul writhing, broken, full of sadness, anger, and pain... This morning I woke up feeling empty, depleted, dry, and destroyed... but today my soul was touched, and I feel like a breath of fresh air, and a breath of fresh life has been breathed into the depths of my being. Even if this feeling is only temporary... I will remain stronger until the next hill peak.
Peyton "Espada" Bloom